January 28, 2003
"Do You Think That They'll Let Me In Heaven?" by Pat

Do you think that they’ll let me in heaven,
After what I did to that priest?
With those boyish looks and blonde curls,
And my sycophantic “Yes, Father’s”.
Sure, the man didn’t have a chance, or a choice.
No, I don’t think that they’ll let me in heaven,
After I went and corrupted that priest.

Do you think that they’ll let me in heaven,
After what I did to the church?
The rock that Jesus founded,
That binds heaven from Earth.
And condones the loosened cassock.
No, I don’t think they’ll let me in heaven,
After I went and reported the church.

Do you think that they’ll let me in heaven,
After abusing ‘cause I was abused?
My ex, my kids, my family.
My friends, my community, my body.
It was all that priests fault, wasn’t it, Pat?
No, I don’t think they’ll let me in heaven,
After I went and blamed someone else.

Do you think that they’ll let me in heaven,
After feltching the churches coffers?
Inadequate payment for a night-time of horrors.
For what profit a man…
Final payment for the final part of my soul.
No, I don’t think they’ll let me in heaven,
After I went and sought compensation.

Do you think that they’ll let me in heaven?
No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No Way, No!
If only it wasn’t so….

Posted by Colm at January 28, 2003 10:19 AM
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so powerful pet....

Posted by: T on December 13, 2002 04:51 PM

You know what Pat, after what you've been through, you deserve to OWN heaven. Your poem is really great, you are a great guy, and you deserve to heal from those horrific experiences....My angels tell me your place is guaranteed.........
Love
Eleanor

Posted by: Eleanor on January 28, 2003 09:07 PM

Pat,

That is a beautiful poem... so true of our feelings. And... yes, yes, yes, you will be let into Heaven!

Lisa

Posted by: Lisa on January 29, 2003 12:08 PM

Good Poem-do these lying abusers think that they will one day get into heaven?

Posted by: JUSTICE on January 30, 2003 12:16 AM

Fantastic expression Pat....very powerful....G

Posted by: G on January 30, 2003 05:13 PM

hey Pat, great poem. it just says so much so well. take care. k

Posted by: K on January 30, 2003 08:51 PM

powerful, tears, anger

Posted by: Dave on January 31, 2003 07:20 AM

ne thing I never do is cry about what happened to me.As a child it was my way of coping Not to show any emotion especially tears,I didnt want them to know how much they broke my heart every time they touched my body.Your words almost broke me.I felt one with the confusion,the helpless situation I put these people through,where they had no choice but to f... with my body.afterall I was such a bad person if I were to die I wouldnt go to heaven but if I trusted them they would make me good again,that was their job.I was so terrified of the flames of hell that I heard so much about,parts of my body were on fire after he was finished with me I thought oh my God what would it be like for the rest of me to be in the flames,I would have to try harder to be a better person,and not have this dirty B...... with a colar to do these horrible things to make me good again and fit enough to go to heaven.The pain in my heart is worse than any amount of F....... Id like to thank you for putting words on what I thought and sometimes still think,on what I felt and sometimes still feel.

Posted by: Samantha /Lor on March 1, 2003 02:55 PM
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